Illusions.

Not understanding anything anymore. Live like a robot all the time. Just trying to do my job in this world. But what really is my life job? Inside of the body little girl cries. She wonders how much more time she has to wait for "happines". Will this waiting be for nothing at the end? Or maybe someone will throw a spell on me and then the princess on her unicorn will come for me. Shall we live in this illusion? Better then reallity I guess.

I dreamt about you today,
it was so magical
till your girlfriend came.

Pain and hope.

How does it feel to be alone in the bed at the night? Lonely, all by yourself. You've been so many times hurt that you don't even believe in love anymore. You are so afraid of commitment that
you push other people away when you detect something more than just sex.
I know that deep inside you, you're sick of sex without emotions and that you desire for love and something more. But you're just too afraid to do something about this. This fear is killing you.
Behind every bitch there is a story why is she like this. Like you have a story, like I do.
This system is so stupid. We wish it could be better, we wish we could have luck like those
people we see in the movies. In the reality life is just one big drama.
Trying to be optimistic and have hope it's all we can do 'cause hope dies last.
And if we lose hope, we will lose our mind.

End of boredom.

Today is the end of the hollidays.
On the one side its bad because I don't want to go back to this stressful school, but on the other side its cool 'cause it won't be so boring anymore.
Yesterday it was halloween. I should go to this party but this friend that we should go together got ill. I myself didn't really want to go there 'cause I was so excosted, so it was alright for me.
On the Saturday my lovely friend I was telling you about in the post before this one came to my town and had sleepover at my place. It was really fun and it was nice to see her after long time.
Today it was boring day and I was so nervous 'cause tomorrow is school and I will se her again. I'm not sure if I want to see her. Mixed feelings I guess...
I'm really excited about this singer La roux, she's so hot and I love her songs. The lyrics are so right!