Truth is, I don't wanna waste another moment with someone who isn't you.

Maybe in time you’ll want to be mine …

                                                                                                                                                                                            

Lying on the sofa, my friend is sleeping next to me.

Again, I can't sleep. Fucking insomnia.

I'm watching High art.

It makes me feel even worse when I look those love moments.

Why isn't it always like those relationships in the movies?

So easy, so simple...all so happy together.

And there they're hugging, kissing...oh, how I wish it was me.

I desire so much.

Why am I such a heavy person.

I pretty much annoy myself too.

Right now I wish I was my friend.

She's in this new relationship.

Her boyfriend tells her he loves her all the time

and sends her a message every night.

Oh, how I wish for some noticing.

Today I had a dream about her.

We were on the same school and just when we had a lesson

she pulled me out of the class and we ran to vineyards.

When we stopped running we began to kiss.

I'm so bad...My dreams are killing me.

...are you happy when you treat me like that?

I swear its all for you in every single line.

Fragile hope

Its you and the things you do to me now I'm living in ecstasy.

...and the road's still long but you come along

and you hold my hand and you understand.

& here we are locked together

& here we are, falling from the sun.

Oh, where do we go in these days?

Oh, where will we land?

illogical system

If you do this...
If you do this...
If you do this, you'll never have a chance to try again.

Don't you do it - you're not even you yet.


I woke up got on Facebook and guess who sent me a mail?
My ex J! Haha...
He think I'll write him if I have time today. He must be really optimistic if he think I'll get back to him.
He made a fool of himself, nothing can fix this. I will never trust him again.
I don't even know what's got into him that he wrote me in the first place.
I think it's because I'm ignoring him.
It's like when you try to do everything for a person you get nothing.
But when you couldn't care less and ignore them they all want you.
Now who doesn't think this system is illogical?
I sure do think it is.

If you want to hold on to the first girl that you meet
Or if you want to settle down and plant roses at my feet
Go ahead
I wish you would
Go ahead

Haunted in woods.

Today I dreamt about her.

I was at her's place.

We were kissing so passionately.

She was biting my lip.

Then I had to go 'cause I didn't want to miss a bus.

I lost myself in some woods. Somebody was haunting me.

I think that some crazy woman...

Okay, what the fuck?

Does somebody know what means if you're being haunt in your dreams?

I hope nothing bad...

  

Last night I got to sleep at 6 am and slept to 6 pm.

I wonder why she doesn't call me.

I won't say anything neither.

There's always me that does things first.

I feel so annoying.

Still, I want to go out...

dance.

Party girl

It doesn't matter
what you create
if you have no fun

Pretty girl
put down your pen
come over here
I'll show you how its done

I can dance, I can drink
in the dark
it's all a trick

across the room, across the street
I'm in the moment
can't you see

I'm a party girl
do a twirl
see my eyes, throw a glance
can't you see I'm a natural

Life of a party girl, funny girl
make you laugh, want me bad
now I feel so much better

In the back
of a car
I just met them tonight and I feel like such a star

what's your name
what's your art
nobody knows
about my broken heart

What did you do last night?
Oh, I was out so late, now I'm so tired

I used to cry
but now I don't have the time
I used to be so fragile
but now I'm so wild

Plan with C and N didn't work.

C didn't show up.

Nothing new.

Zombie morning

I slept so bad tonight. I've gone to sleep at 4 am. I had trouble with sleeping. First I couldn't stop thinking and second some animal or something weird made some sounds so I was scared. Okay, I know that sounds mad but my parents said a long time ago that they will take care of that and they still didn't. Crap.

Today in the morning my sister wake me up 'cause she came for a dinner. Great, last thing I wanted...I'm like a zombie now. I guess I'll go back to sleep when I write this. I forgot my mom has a birthday too! I'm so stupid. Days ago I wanted to draw her something beautiful and now everything's ruined! For my luck she didn't expected anything from me. But you know how it is, you still feel bad about it...

I found some pictures of fashion today that I like. I decided to post some of them here.

Okay that's it. What do you think?

Friend called me if I'll go with her on her's friend birthday. They have too much alcohol and I can come with my friends if I want. But they have already reserved a ride to the town later than this...I don't think its possible that they'll come with me but I'll ask anyway. I have nothing to lose. But not now...I'm too sleepy and tired.

Its far too early in the morning 

to be trying to call you
And far too early in the daytime 

to be thinking about that

Oh and so I'll go, yes I'll go, 

so I'll take that train and ride.
Wishing, hoping I can write her a rhyme, 

that might stop the tick of time
Get off this situation and feel fine

There's only tease, tease, tease.

Hello guys.
At last I'm writting again! It was so long since I wrote a blog.
It's just that my stupid computer doesn't open me the loggin site so I can't even log in.
Youtube loggin and google doesn't work neither. Oh, it was so long that I kinda got used to it. But sometimes it still drives me crazy when I get an inspiration and I can't write.
Today I'm on my sisters computer 'cause she has gone in Greece for a week. So I can advantage this a little bit, hehe.
So here's whats happening in my life lately. (Most of love life...you know love means a lot to me.)
I had a good friend C...at least I though she was. We were friends for about a year and half. Then last mounth I was beggining to hang out with her more than usually. We were going out, drinking, partying a lot. I don't know exactly when, how did happen but with time I fell in love with her.
It became very obvious that I like her so I told her this. She was just getting over her girlfriend 'cause they've break up but they were together for almost two years. She told me that she's not for serious relationship right now but that we can make make out anyway. I though that's okay and that with time she'll want to be with me. After this I had a sleepover at her place. She actually fucked me so bad that everything hurted me and next week she had a serious relationship with some ugly girl. I don't know how could she do this to me and now she's with her for a month. Since then we didn't talk as much as we did. I can't believe how can person change in a moment in such a bad person, such a liar...
I kinda got over her now and I'm planning a revenge tomorrow. I invited her out with me and my friends. I and my friend N are going to act like we're together to make her jealous that she can see that she's not fucking with me anymore and that I'm not so desperate. But I'm not sure that C will show up and that worries me...not because of C but because of N. Oh well...
I hate myself 'cause I always want everything so quick and usually I fucked up everything because of that.
I hope this won't happen again.

So here is me, writing my shitty novel. Wish me luck tomorrow guys. Let this bitch see who's the boss here! I'll report if I could get to the site.

Trying to hold it together
Keep my love as light as a feather
Sad eyes baby it's been such a long time
Keep my heart breaking in the dark
Come and spend the night